Monday, December 31, 2007

Somebody get me this T-shirt

available here.


Music is the only thing that makes sense anymore ...
Play it loud enough and it keeps the demons at bay.

Is there anybody going to listen to my story
All about the girl who came to stay?
She's the kind of girl you want so much
It makes you sorry
Still, you don't regret a single day

Girl, The Beatles

Top of 2007

It may be wrong to call it "Top". "In heavy rotation" would be more apt. And by "2007", I mean to say these songs were on my playlist for 2007. Not that they were released this year.

Anyhow, following 2005 and 2006, here is 2007.

The Bird And The Bee ~ Fucking Boyfriend
Sondre Lerche ~ Track You Down
Death Cab For Cutie ~ A Movie Script Ending
Death Cab For Cutie ~ What Sarah Said
Peter, Bjorn And John featuring Victoria Bergsman ~ Young Folks
Rachael Yamagata ~ Meet Me By The Water
Rufus Wainwright ~ Go Or Go Ahead
Ryan Adams ~ I Taught Myself How To Grow Old
José Gonzalez ~ Save Your Day
Cocteau Twins ~ Half-Gifts
Lori Carson ~ Waking To The Dream Of You
Feist ~ Intuition
Radiohead ~ All I Need
Evermore ~ It's Too Late
Ben Folds Five ~ Brick
Lifehouse ~ Blind
Joy Division / New Order ~ Ceremony
Feist & Eirik Glamboek Boe ~ How My Heart Behaves
Depeche Mode ~ Precious
Beatles ~ Eleanor Rigby
Aimee Mann ~ That's How I Knew This Story Would Break My Heart

It's just a confused list. Which pretty much sums up the year.

Cheers and jeers, another beer to shunt the tears.

Sunday, December 30, 2007

What "Love" means?

I'm trying to come up with a list of definition for "love" as described in a song.

Alternatively, for those who grew up listening to eurothrash dance hits like Haddaway's What Is Love, we're trying our best to save Haddaway. "What is love? Baby don't hurt me, don't hurt me, no more.", you can take it as a mission to save Haddaway from being hurt. Very silly, I know. Hahahahaha...

For eg. in Massive Attack's Teardrop which features the inimitable Elizabeth (with a "z") Fraser, "Love, Love is a verb. Love is a doing word."

And Death Cab For Cutie, What Sarah Said, "Love is watching someone die."

If I have to go through my entire iTunes, it can be really tough.

I just remembered that U2 says in One that "Love is a temple. Love - the higher law." and also Eurythmics has a definition in You Have Placed A Chill In My Heart that starts off somewhat similar, "Love is a temple, love is a shrine. Love is pure and love is blind. Love is a religious sign. Love is hot and love is cold, love is rock and love is roll."

Can you all help out or not? Otherwise Haddaway will keep on asking what is love and his baby will hurt him. Domestic violence.

The New Year

The New Year

So this is the new year.
And I don't feel any different.
The clanking of crystal
Explosions off in the distance.

So this is the new year
And I have no resolutions
For self assigned penance
For problems with easy solutions

So everybody put your best suit or dress on
Let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
Lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
As thirty dialogues bleed into one

I wish the world was flat like the old days
Then I could travel just by folding a map
No more airplanes, or speed trains, or freeways
There'd be no distance that could hold us back.

There'd be no distance that could hold us back

So this is the new year

~ DCFC ~

The Love I'm Searching For -

As covered by Yeah Yeah Yeahs

I don't think I'll find a love I want
The love I'm searching for in this machine
Oh, visions fail and all the circuits blow
And the message lost in this machine

Oh, I tried.
You know I'll try, I'll try
And hard as it may be, you know you should be with me
Even though it seems its all a lie
I still believe you should be with me

Original by The Rentals

BTW, these are great

Oh no, there's that smell again.
What is it coming for?
It takes my sense away
In a way I can't afford.
Can I leave it?
Can I cover it up?
Can I bring it
If I bottle it up?

Oh no, there's that smell again.
What is it coming for?
It takes my breath away
In a way I can't afford.
Can I leave it?
Can I cover it up?
Can I bring it
If I bottle it up?

Oh no

Oh no

Oh no

Maybe You're Gone

Maybe You're Gone

You have been waiting all your life
You use your patience to stay fine
Time moves on as you prepare to tell yourself be reasonable
Then come the times you can't foresee
You cannot leave, you can't release
To keep you far from those dreams
Ignoring the right times
Oh, waiting was my life

For now it's too late and you may not wait
And things that I have yet to know vanish before they're complete
I may turn around to see if you're still there
But as for now, it's just not safe

Maybe you'll wait for me
Maybe you're gone

You've been preparing all your life
You've had some trouble getting it right
And you try to tell yourself it may work, as it should
But something good can do much harm
The good may kill for your embrace
To keep you far from those dreams
You know you cannot dream

I'm stuck for now, it seems

Sondre Lerche

Saturday, December 29, 2007

A song a day 54

Are you an amateur, or is it you're unkind
To torture all the other girls you keep me by your side
Are you unsatisfied you can't make up your mind
When you can take me by the hand and I will close my eyes

I realised that if not for the chorus, this song is ambisexual.
or asexual?



Here comes the eagerly anticipated Littlefish 2008 crystal ball gazing ...

Thailand Valentine's Day Government formed - Thaksin returns to Thailand = bad news. Thai King's health ails further. But economy and social structure remains resilient though volatile (borrowed from IHT).
Zimbabwe Presidential Elections - one name: Mugabe.
Serbia Presidential Elections - yawn.
Russia Presidential whatchamightcallit - Medvedev is the new Russian word for puppet. Putin is PM. Gets paid less than our PM.
Nepal Constituent Assembly Elections - Monarchy abolished, progressive as long as Maoists stay calm.
Bhutan Elections - if Bhutanese (happy bunch of people) can differentiate between National Council and National Assembly. Question: Is democracy more suited for the educated else it ends up like a popularity contest ie. Philippines.
UK - Will Gordon Brown call for snap elections? No, time over. Will history repeat itself? Will Brown do a Major? I don't know. David Cameron looks ahead in polls. Snap elections within weeks of Brown taking over Blair would have been positive but with the piling blunders and disasters...May Day elections for Brown? My money is on Summer '09.
US Presidential Elections - Al Gore refuses to lend his name to Hilary or Obama. Three-way fight dilutes democrat votes. Rudy wins!

Only remaining troops in Iraq all have Green Card. So they pull out after proclaiming that Gen. Petraeus plan (sadly being called general betray-us, i think he is doing hell of a job, surging troops and all.) was a great success! Leaving behind local upheavals. Power vacuum attracts tyrants. So lots of opportunities for Blackwater.

More cases of Blackwater employees involved in controversial security related issues. Need to fill up power vacuum becomes a priority.

China and Japan cosy up on pretext of peaceful development road and Japan providing the support. Strengthening the East Asian Economy. Making Taiwan and America jittery. As will rest of Indo-china and South East Asia. But what the hell, we just wanna ride on the wave.

China and India avoid direct confrontation on all grounds - economic, military, politics. They both know that they are jostling for superemacy in the coming decades.

Malaysia takes a harder stance against seditious acts by HINDRAF. HINDRAF gains an uncomfortable ally in media - Al Jazeera. Achieves nothing.

Singapore politics.....government raise more prices of everything. People mumble and grumble. PM say he is all for consultative governing. Achieves nothing. Oh, wait. Higher prices for everything is achieved. Nullifying out pay increments. Rents shoot through the roof. But government assures us this is necessary. Government suggests a scrapping road tax as the full ERP plan is revealed. The LTA full review is coming up in 2008. Forumla 1 in Singapore - great success! But heartland Singapore remains uninterested and do not benefit directly.

RESILIENT, BUT VOLATILE. Whatever that means. The full extent of subprime woes are reviewed after Apr 08. Expectations are adjusted, risks are managed, aims are re-aligned. US economy says no change in fundamentals. Growth in US supercedes expectations. But really, I think people will ditch the dollar. My optimism is misguided. China and East Asian markets continues to grow within Pacific bubble. Rallying of stock markets for a rosy start to Beijing Summer Olympic Games.
Middle East becomes shit hot for investment opportunities. Qatar, UAE, Saudi Arabia, Oman, Bahrain, Kuwait, Iran and Iraq.

Global-warming issues remain the main topic for many regional and international forums. Especially on carbon-footprint, renewable energy resources and management of 3rd world vs 1st world development. Efficacity becomes buzzy.

Isnt' it weird that 10 years or more ago, we were talking about CFCs, then ozone, then global warming, then renewable energy....but we seemed to have moved nowhere. Perhaps it's time for environmentalists to move aside and let economists play a bigger role in environmental issues. Instead of spearheading the way with causes and effects, economists can better managed carbon credits, pollution, etc etc....using the free market and other economic tools.

Instead of organic or local produce, we are concern with the question of need. The What / Where / How / For Whom food should be produce is asked.

Fashion and Trends
Blue and Grey rules!
Girls.....More scarfs. Chunk jewelry - I dunno why, I just think so. But not scarfs + chunky necklace. Floral prints. Feminine to ultra-feminine. Knitwear vests. I really don't wish to see highwaisted jeans/skirts, it's been bubbling for much of's on par with low waist jeans that reveal butt cracks. Wanna see high heel strappies. Like mary-janes. but with heels. And attitude. New Balance hits ladies with their inside collection. Beautiful colourways and design. Huge carryalls. I mean huge. And more people re-using shopping bags from Macy's Saks Fifth Avenue etc...
For guys....fitted clothes with details. Translucence - like how Yohji and Fendi does it. Hopefully don't see too much oversized denims or pullovers. What with the whole RUN DMC look anyway? Talking about RUN DMC, Puma Disc system makes a comeback but attracts only sneakerfreaks/fiends/pimps. Remember Puman Disc? The rival to Reebok's Pump? One button suits become office wear for the fashion forward and fashion savvy. Less colour for the readysetglo indie kids. Red jeans. Purple jeans. Yellow jeans - are we returning to the 1990s? What can get guys through 2008 and beyond? Stick with classics, it's so simple I can do it. Regular blue jeans (not tapered, not superfitting), preferably dry denim. White cotton tshirts but not the underwear type. White shirt with minute detailing. Plain black belt. Black/dark brown casual shoes/loafers/quality moccasin. Non-sports brand sunglasses. Rayban wayfarers are hot, but you might wanna avoid those. This ensemble can get you through from 1960 through to 2060. Fucking ditch the Crocs.

Snitching from Poofie, Goyard for gays and bagfiends. And I'm not sure if a peroxide short crop ala Agyness Deyn will be hot. It'll be interesting on Asians though.

David Guetta

I am impressed by the party people at Zouk last night. Super surprised that Mong sms me that Zouk and Phuture was sold out by 11pm. I thought only when Sasha and PeeVeeDee then will have such effect on the clubbing circuit.

And people talking over their phones telling their friends, "Eh, where are you? Zouk more happening leh!"

And people were singing along to his tracks from Pop Life! album.

Clubbing dreams are made of nights like these.....

F*** Me I'm Famous

Friday, December 28, 2007

Why climb mountains?

He looked into the horizon, as if focusing on the cumulonimbus clouds gathering. A thunderstorm threatened. Absentmindedly, he murmured, "I think we've plateaued."

She was trying to see what his eyes were fixing at and was caught slightly off-guarded with the remark. She resisted turning her head just yet.

Although she didn't make any reply, he was certain that she had heard him. There was no need to repeat himself and unnecessary to ask if she heard what he said.

The anticipatory air grew awkward as she pursed her lips to ready her response.

Without taking his eyes off the horizon, he continued, "These days we just go into a routine of meeting only on weekends, we no longer talk about our dreams. Instead we focus on the things in life that bring us down......" his voice trailing off into a sigh.

A thousand thoughts raced through her mind and she wasn't exactly sure what her response would be like. She wondered if there was a specific answer that he was looking for. She remembered how long they have been together. Long enough to take each others' presence for granted.

He noticed that she was quiet. As she usually is. Something he had learn to live with. In fact, it was something he thought helped to keep them together. Plateau notwithstanding. The resistance to be flippant. The cool measured tones that characterised her and had thus characterised the relationship.

"But I have never been on a mountain higher than this plateau. So why climb mountains when this is as close to heaven as we've ever been?"

They both turned to face each other and smiled. Above them, blue skies with some cirrus formation.

She closed her eyes to ready for his kiss.

Thursday, December 27, 2007

How Do You Know It's Gonna Be A Bad Day?

Tell-tale signs telling you the day is going to be bad......

You wake up and there's already a text message on your phone from your boss/colleague.
I hate this. Sometimes it happens on my off day or when I'm on leave. But work is work....gah.

You wake up to the sound of the alarm clock.
I have this perversion. I like to beat the clock. I want to stop the alarm before it can even start. It's this competitive streak in me that was honed from the many years of competition in school. If I fail to beat the clock. I will feel lousy the whole day. Basically I just hate the sound of alarm.

You wake up to the sound of your phone ringing and it's your boss/colleague on the other line.
This is worse than text message. Many times worse.

You wake up and it's Monday / Tuesday / Wednesday / Thursday / Friday.
Working days just suck. Don't they?

You wake up and it's not a holiday.
Sometimes you get caught in a dilemma of waking early to make full use of a holiday and not waste it sleeping in. The moment you think that way, you've wasted precious sleep time.

You wake up. But cannot go back to sleep immediately.

You wake up and its not past 12 noon.
(See above).

You wake up and beside work-related appointments, there is nothing else to look forward to.
What's worse than facing a bad day is that there is nothing down the way that will pick you up.

You wake up, late for the early morning meeting and you missed 3,456 calls from the boss.
You panic. There is nothing else you can do. You are tempted to get yourself in an accident, so that you have an excuse. You wish the world will can turn the other way round. You ask yourself, "What would Hiro do?".

You wake up to get ready for work and it's a Saturday/Sunday/Holiday.
Either you work up by mistake or you actually have to work on these days, it sucks. Big time.

Tomorrow's promise

This weekend sounds exciting. >.<
Baby when the light goes out!

Far away
The ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

And I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations, yeah!

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Songs of Sondre Lerche


GO listen now Now NOW!!!

A song a day 53

We often joke it's over but it's never enough
I take it you are afraid
Afraid of everything I am
And of some things I am not
A fear I share before I go to bed


When my words lost their meaning on their way to your door
yours lost their way out of your


I don't want to want you to go
But I think you've left me without options
Things that you should know by now
That I never told

Tricks tend to track you down
Even when you're high

If you don't know this by now.....

Next year's Mosaic Music Festival is absolutely flip-fantastic!

Broken Social Scene! Omigawd! Is Feist here as well? What will happen if they sing their firsttimeiamgivingablowjob hit Lover's Spit from Wicker Park / Half Nelson soundtrack? Which version will it be? - 7:30pm 9 Mar 07 Sunday

Sondre Lerche and The Faces Down! - 11pm 14 Mar 07 Friday

And according to kittystar, Múm from Iceland is a must-see as well... Another Wicker Park soundtrack alumni, like BSS. - 7:30pm 13 Mar 07 Thursday

I feel like checking out The Bird And The Bee from LA too. With song titles like "Fucking Boyfriend", surely it's worth a listen? - 7:30pm / 10pm 11/12 Mar 07 Tuesday / Wednesday youtube sample - The Bird And The Bee ~ Again And Again. "Are you working up to something? But you give me almost nothing. Keep me helpless. Up to something on my knees
Would you ever be my, would you be my fucking boyfriend?" I think it's no longer a feeling. I will check them out.

Was Caroline part of Mosaic last year or was she just here as part of her tour? I think this is by far one of the bestest music festival locally. Can't wait for the lineup for local bands.

What associates me?

If there is one thing I really like, is when people ask me what I am listening to and in return they tell me what they are listening to.

The question "What are you listening to?" differs from "What music do you like?" or variations of that.

If there is one thing I reckon that I can use to know a person better, it will probably be through the songs that s/he listens to.

I mentioned this before. But of course I won't marry anybody who owns Unbelievable Truth, Lori Carson and Suddenly, Tammy! albums. It is a little odd that amongst the three artists/bands listed here, two are defunct and Lori Carson hasn't made anything since 2004.

I am writing about this now because 4 different persons have asked me what I've been listening to within the month and it made me realised how people are associated to certain stuff. I guess because of the fact that I have so many labels in my blog associated with music I listen to : "a song a day", "lyrics", "cisum stuff", "imeem" and shitloads of other music-related entries, it's easy to guess that I'm the sort who plugs into his iPod whenever possible.

Which is true.

So thank you, all four of you, for asking me what I'm listening to on FaceBook/MSN/etc etc and re-introducing music, like Goldfrapp, that I've neglected, sharing similar simultaneous liking, like PBJ's Young Folks, and introducing exciting new bands, like Unkle Bob, to me.

Maybe if I should say that besides playing Joy Division's Ceremony at my funeral, my epitaph - should I have one, should read something like "Guess what is he listening to now?"

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

A song a day 52

Walk in silence,
Don't turn away, in silence.
Your confusion, my illusion,
Worn like a mask of self-hate,
Confronts and then dies.
Don't walk away.

Alcoholic amnesia

Last year I was in Hong Kong attending a friend's wedding today. If I can drink enough alcohol to induce amnesia from then to today, I would.

But I can't.

There is only so much that I can drink.

So there was only enough alcohol to carry me from the time the brown liquor in the bottle glugged down my throat the second time until the moment I awoke to the irritating sound of television.

Merry Christmas everyone. If only I believed in Santa Claus. Perhaps I'd be a nicer boy. There's not much left to grow.

Don’t shoot me Santa Claus
I’ve been a clean living boy
I promise you
Did every little thing you asked me to
I can’t believe the things I’m going through


Finished the entire season 1 in 3 days. Gripping! American TV series always do that to me. The first half season of The O.C. captivated me while I was in Tokyo last year over the New Year period. I didn't want to miss any episode of Lost. But somehow, I always give up on their second season.

The showdown between Sylar and Peter was not exactly effects-ridden. Not really a let down but was just wondering if Peter's radiation was stopping him from being able to fly. I mean, why else would Nathan step in? And also, since Peter came into contact with Sylar at Kirby Plaza, will that mean he has superhuman hearing and liquefaction powers as well?

It's no coincidence that Sylar and Peter are portrayed as opposites in terms of their powers. Sylar needs to remove the brain in order to receive the powers while Peter needs to remember them in his head.

Death is a dominant theme. How death, and the prevention of it, seems to be the motivator for all our actions. Death makes us filter the important from the mundane and ration our remaining time amongst those whom we really love and care for.

While many of us wish to have powers similar to the characters in the series, but without the baggage, we know that it is almost impossible. Well, at least not in the present moment. We want to be Hiro Nakamura but we know we're more like Ando.

But there is this underlying theme that became more apparent as the season came to a close. The premise on which the plan to blow up half of New York City was very disturbing. The need to sacrifice thousands in order to save millions, was how Angela Petrelli described Hiroshima and Nagasaki atomic bombs. It's a nefarious act that can be done only by the callous, many would say. But if the end was achieved, will it justify the means? If someone said that the world would be much safer after a September 11, with the slew of plans and imperatives in place, the surveillance cameras, the Patriot Act, the right to declare war on another country, is it justified? And if it was self-inflicted, can anybody say it was wrong, after seeing the big picture?

Monday, December 24, 2007

X'mas Carols

It's a little bit weird that for this year, I heard "Chestnuts roasting on an open fire......" only on Christmas Eve.

At the nearby Post Office no less. While q-ing up to renew my PDL.


A song a day 51

秋风吹起落叶飘 彷徨的我 徘徊在十字街口上
蓝色的海洋不平静 我的心情也像海浪一样动乱

来来 回来吧 甜蜜的爱


Was in dad's van, on the way home from dinner with him and mum. This song started playing on the radio.

I always remembered liking this song since I was a wee boy. Mum was saying that when I started crying, she'll play this song, sung by Tracy Huang, and I will be appeased.


I've been watching the tv series Heroes. I know I'm more than a season slower than most but it's ok.

I really liked the chapter on "Saving Charlie". Hiro (the Jap dude who can manipulate the space-time continuum) and Charlie (the small town texan beauty with eidetic memory) don't make a great screen couple physically. Hiro, I'm sure he rules the Geek world while Charlie is the typical high school sweet heart blonde.

Hiro tries to save her from Sylar by teleporting himself back in time. He managed to go back 6 months but Charlie tells him that she has a blood clot and will die anyway. Had Hiro knew this, would he have gone back 6 months and risk not saving the cheerleader Claire?

WWHD - What Would Hiro Do?

It's easy to know why Hiro Nakamura is one of the most popular hero in the series. His ideals and failures make him like one of us. His self-reproaches can sometime be really funny. As are his idealistic wanderings with sidekick Ando. Through Hiro, we learn many lessons in life as well. But the most important one would be that however powerful we are or can be, we can never change two things: Our past and our destiny.

Just to sidetrack, this series suggests that beyond science and faith, there is a higher order of system that governs us. While Suresh provides the scientific explanations for these powers that the heroes have, he believes in destiny, that which we cannot control.

It was destiny that guided Hiro to teleport himself 6 months back. He would never have done otherwise.

For those who like this little romance-tinged chapter, there is actually a book - Saving Charlie by Aury Wallington written based on it and will be released on Boxing Day 2007.

Sea Tiger Ship Dinner

It was not easy coordinating a ship dinner when 1) funds were running low 2) former crew has been spread all over the RSN 3) it's the holiday season, some were overseas.

But with great help from sengtiong, ah teo (marathon partner) and maurice, we pulled it off ok.

(L to R: GO - Eugene, Coxswain - Yonghua, WEO - Ben, OPS - Choonghern, CO - Samy, XO - Jackson, NO - Jeremiah, CEO - Tuckkam)

Thanks to the contributions from fellow officers! =)

The missile gunboats seem to know that their time has come and gone. But they will not go gently into that good night. In the past 6 months, we've proven to others that we remain a potent force to be reckoned with. Not forgetting the successful missile firing that became the talk of the whole navy. And now our sister ship, Sea Dragon (Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon) looks set to win the navy's Top Gun this year with Eugene (previous Gunnery Officer from Tiger).

Rage, rage against the dying of light.... (A Villanelle - Dylan Thomas, is such a beautiful poem. A perfect combination of poetic beauty in choice of words, technical difficulty as well as the human story behind it.)

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Maybe you'll understand this too

Whatever happened to Cocteau Twins? Elizabeth Fraser did some great stuff with FSOL and Massive Attack, renewing her street-cred. Lending her vocals talents to LOTR ost widen her appeal. Kinda. But I don't think the Cocteau Twins are gonna release anything for years to come. A pity.

Their earlier work bear some semblance to the sparse sound in Joy Division music. Not surprisingly so. They were very much influenced by JD and Sex Pistols...various other punk groups I don't know how many post-punk fans know them. Not post- enough and not -punk enough. Some M-pop and C-pop music lovers may recognise some tracks because Faye Wong, a fan, covered some of their songs and worked with them on a couple of new ones. Exciting times those were.

Recently I've been listening to the 4-disc set released by 4AD - Lullabies to Violaine. Revisiting an old favourite - Half-Gifts. Just want to share the acoustic version with you all. I much prefer the acoustic version to the album version, especially when Elizabeth Fraser's tender voice trembles towards the end.....


It's an old game, my love
When you can't have me, you want me

Because you know that you're not risking anything

Intimacy is when we're in the same place at the same time
Dealing honestly with how we feel, and who we really are

That's what grown-ups do
That is mature thinking

Well I'm still a junkie for it
It takes me out of my aloneness
But this relationship cannot sustain itself

Intimacy is when we're in the same place at the same time
Dealing honestly with how we feel, and who we really are

That's what grown-ups do
That is mature thinking

I just have to know how to be in the process
Of creating things in a better way
And it hurts but it's a lie that I can't handle it
I still have a world of me-ness to fulfill
I still have a life, and it's a rich one even with mourning
Even with grief and sadness

I still care about this planet
I am still connected to nature and to my dreams for myself

I have my friends, my family.
I have myself
I still have me

I have my friends, my family.
I have myself
I still have me

Cocteau Twins

Uniformed smile

What a lousy title. But here goes......

Met with my agent today, need to execute some plans that I've been putting off for the longest time.

So I was in the train, on my way home, my nano on shuffle, The Killers' Smile Like You Mean it came on.....

And someone will drive her around
Down the same streets that I did
On the same streets that I did

Smile like you mean it

then Bloc Party's Uniform came on.

We tell ourselves we're different
I've gotten so good at lying to myself

I found that having these two songs played one after another rather ironic. And found myself smiling.

It was a genuine smile. The irony.


Don't worry about the title. It's just a random title cause I really don't have much to write but just want to record it down.

Looking at the end of year review, well, some were frighteningly accurate. Like movement of Chinese Yuan, re-arming of Japan, Malaysia racial issues, Middle East and South East Asian countries forging closer ties (look at the number of visits by Singapore leaders to the region and Middle Eastern interest in the region's property market, especially in KL). Mittal Steel showing interest in EPL (Queens Park Rangers). Prices in Singapore going up. Singapore Airlines yet to get into the lucrative Australia-US air route but with new Aussie PM and a new trade minister Simon Crean, talks are possible. Straits Times Index breaking 3000 mark (note that from last year to this year, the massive increase was adjusted dramatically.). Blair making way for Brown. Talk on the Princes' marriage. On the fashion front, look at the number of guys in cardigans. I mentioned colours picking up although I picked all the wrong colours hahaha....and take a walk around the newer shopping malls in town, namely Central (above Clark Quay) and The Cathay (next to Plaza Singapura) and count the number of chandeliers....

For those who read this blog consistently, I wish to thank you for showing interest. For those who felt engaged and actually left comments, I am ever grateful. To friends who knew me before stumbling upon this blog, thanks for being a friend. I'm lazy in maintaining friendships. To friends who knew me through this blog, thanks for being a friend as well. I now have one less enemy in the world.

Friday, December 21, 2007


I have been seeing her for more than 6 years. It was a chance encounter that led to a long term relationship. I use the word loosely. It's more of a transaction. Almost business-like. It only got friendlier when I met her in my neighbourhood earlier this year.

I meet her on a monthly basis. I'm such a faithful customer that I no longer go into the specifics of what I want. Merely a brief description and she's quick with the recommendations. And her hands, moving just as fast. At the end of my third or fourth year of consistent patronage, she started giving me discounts even though it's not the norm.

It was almost a shock seeing her outside her normal work station. I had to do a double take before realising it was her. If not for her smile, I wouldn't even have looked her way.

It was at my next visit that I asked her why was she doing near my place. She replied that she'd moved. She was renting an apartment at the old condominium. The apartment belongs to the sister of her boss. She was looking to move to a more permanent place.

When she re-located, I followed. It will be odd having someone else do it for me. Just don't cut it.

Recently I went to her again. This time she told me she'd found a place. The apartment is located at the adjacent block. How weird.

To think that 6 years ago when I first decided to get blonde highlights, I decided to get it done at Reds Salon Bugis Junction. Michelle was the senior stylist then. Couple of months back, when she moved over to Jeric Salon at Central to head as the Director, I continued to get my monthly haircut from her.

It's not value-for-money like at the local barber or Sri Dewa. But I'm paying for a slice of constant in my life. A little piece of indulgence. A time of the month where everything is familiar. And it doesn't really matter how awry my life is twisting out, she's a phonecall away, except on Mondays and when she's on leave or some assignment.

The only expectation is a haircut. She knows I cannot have anything too fanciful or jaunty. The variations are slight. Perhaps a slighlty bias fringe, that's it.

Thursday, December 20, 2007


I can't stop listening to Death Cab and it's already bloody 3:45 in the morning.

Death Cab

I'm constantly fascinated by the words of a song. It doesn't have to involve obscure words like dirigible or fontanel. But that can be a plus thing as The Decemberists have done.

I heard Death Cab's "A Movie Script Ending" today. Upon seeing the title, it was like Aimee Mann's "That How I Knew This Story Would Break My Heart", I kinda knew I would like the song.

And I wasn't wrong.
And whatever the song is singing about, well, I don't have it.

Now we all know the words were true
In the sappiest songs, yes, yes
I'll put them to bed, but they won't sleep
They're just shuffling the sheets
They toss and turn
(You can't begin to get it back)

Trivia....amaze that person

If that person happens to be a huge Belle & Sebastian and Nick Drake fan, just wonder out loud why a song entitled Is It Wicked Not To Care? by Belle & Sebastian contains an exact same lyrics as Northern Sky by Nick Drake.

"Would you love me till I'm dead?"

I know the truth awaits me
But still I hesitate because of fear

X'mas Light Up

Feel like taking photos of this year's X'mas light up along the shopping belt. This year is by far the prettiest.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

A song a day 50

i will admit all of my weaker parts
but i'll shut up if you don't want my point
my point of view to stand against your own
perhaps you're better off on your own
but i don't need to be put down this way
i'm going down this way but you can stay

do you know the bar
the way to the bar

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Things I'd like to see less of in 2008

Some stuff I would like to see less of in 2008. (Wow! My blog title has a direct meaning!)

SLOGAN T-shirts - You know the trend is going down when Giordano makes them as well. Don't get me wrong. I love Giordano. Especially on rainy days. They've got fantastic items and their continuous endeavor to broaden their appeal is really good. But as far as trends go, it's time to ditch them 3 weeks after Giordano comes up with their take on a trend. I cannot imagine Giordano making tapered jeans. It's weird enough that Levis do that. But I'd gladly check out if Giordano so decide on making jeans using Japanese denim.

Peeping Lace - Go around town, especially Bugis Junction, and you'd know what I mean. Lace is peeping out from EVERYWHERE! Underneath shorts, from heels, from boots, extension of legging, extension of tights, extension of stockings, from sleeves, from hems, from godamn collars - they make the girl look like she has chest hair ! I think there is a strong influence from the whole Gothic Lolita thing. But, when you find lace peeping out from every garment you are wearing (hat, blouse, shorts, skirts, shoes), the lolita effect wears off. Rapidly. And they start to look more like dollies.

CROCS - Cause they were never "cute" or "nice". Chunky almost rhymes with ugly. Surely there is a reason. Oh, and they threaten to cause toes to be ripped off while using the escalators.

CRUMPLER - I own a Crumpler bag too! But that doesn't make it any less ubiquitous. Quite the opposite. We should be seeing the end of it. There was a time when I can recognise a Singaporean overseas. He will most probably be carrying a Deuter backpack. And Deuter is a German brand. Now I can spot a Singaporean by the Crumpler bag. And Crumpler is an Australian brand.
NUM Tank Tops - My god. And please stop parading your dragon boat paddles. I'm sexist in that I find girls with big arms with a dark tan, wearing racer-backs, quite a, turn off. Sorry. My vocabulary is limited. What's another word for turn off? Maybe ladies here can tell me what they feel about seeing these dragon-boating types in their standard kit. Sizzle or fizzle?
Sorry, it's not you. It's your top.

Tapered Bottoms - I warned everyone back in March of this year about tapered bottoms and Giordano slogan T-shirts. Read here. Be careful, don't end up looking like MC Hammer *Can't Touch This. There is a fine line in being fashionable and fashion-oh-no.

So what else is there? What would you like to see less of in 2008?

Tell me....

Apparently my sister lays her bedsheets such that if there are characters on the sheets, they have to be aligned the same manner as she will be when she is asleep.

It suddenly occurred to me that this must not be random. Girls do care about such stuff I'd think.

Am I right?

The picture above does not accurately portray my sister's bed by the way.


Everything's falling, and I am included in that
Oh, how I try to be just okay
Yeah, but all I ever really wanted
Was a little piece of you

I know how to smile through the bitterest of moments. I can do that. I do that very well.

If there is anything I can do better than smile, is to pretend to do it from the bottom of my heart. To do it so well I find myself lulled by my own pretence.

I actually begin to think things are ok. That everything is going to be alright.

I don't recall when I started doing that. All this mock up. I certainly cannot remember if I learnt it. Was there ever a someone who taught me that life is about grinning and bearing?

Perhaps I do it too well. Maybe people around me need to know. I'm so glad I'm not in a place where people ask rhetorically "How are you doing?".

But I know myself all too well. The minute I start on my misery, everything goes awkward. And I have myself to salvage by smiling through it. So how would you know?

All the waves of blame arrange as broken scenery
As they steal your best memories away
What if I was someone different in your only history?
Would you feel the same
As I walk out the door
Never to see your face again

A song a day 49

Worn me down like a road
I did anything you told
Worn me down to my knees
I did anything to please
But you can't stop thinking about her
No you can't stop thinking about her
And you're wrong
You're wrong
I'm not overreacting
Something is off
Why don't we ever believe ourselves?

Monday, December 17, 2007

I vote for Bloc Party

What are you holding out for?
What's always in the way?
Why so damn absent-minded?
Why so scared of romance?

This modern love breaks me
This modern love wastes me

Poofie told me about this last Saturday.

I was quite hammered by the weirdest combination of red wine, sparkling rose wine, kaoliang (fermented sorghum liquor >40% - "finest paint thinner, worst wine ever invented"), random lager from Brewerkz, lychee martini, Guinness (is Greatness) and what else was there?

Anyway, what Poofie told me was that Bloc Party was coming for ReadySetGlo! Kele is playing a DJ set. A wee bit sad that there is no live set. But still ....

I still feel you and the taste of cigarettes
What could I ever run to
Just tell me it's tearing you apart
Just tell me you cannot sleep

Sunday, December 16, 2007

A song a day 48

Was I cruel and never there?
Nothing to rely on
Was our romance a black hole?
You kept the better half than me

Well if you really wanted to know
Well no the earth's not moved for me since
I wish I could've given you lightness
The lightness that you deserve

And they say time is a healer
And time will look after you
I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait
Come over

Come over

you've been such a loser..............why didn't you read the signs?

A song a day 47

Wipe your tears
Never like to see you cry
Won't you please forgive me?
I wouldn't ever try to hurt you
I just needed someone to hold me
To fill the void while you were gone
To fill this space of emptiness
I'm only human
Of flesh and blood I'm made
Born to make mistakes

Saturday, December 15, 2007

A song a day 46

Now we cling to bottles and memories of the past

Just give me moments
Not hours or days
Just give me moments

Grinding your teeth in the middle of the night
With the sadness of those molars
Spend all your spare time trying to escape
With crosswords and Sudoku

If I could do it again
I'd make more mistakes
I'd not be so scared of falling

If I could do it again
I'd climb more trees
I'd pick and I'd eat more wild blackberries

A song a day 45

I don't wanna be adored
Don't wanna be first in line
Or make myself heard
I'd like to bring a little light
To shine a light on your life
To make you feel loved

No, don't wanna be the only one you know
I wanna be the place you call home

Will you see me in the end
Or is it just a waste of time
Trying to be your friend

Fool, I wonder if you know yourself at all
You know that it could be so simple

Say a word or two to brighten my day
Do you think that you could see your way


If a cuckold is a married man whose wife sleeps around with other men, what do you call him if his wife sleeps around with other women?

Friday, December 14, 2007

I am about to destroy your favourite song off "Lost In Translation"

I know quite a number of people who watched Lost In Translation and really liked the soundtrack as well. Halcyonrealms noticed that most Japanese don't really like the movie.

Most of the people who liked the soundtrack would like Jesus And The Mary Chain's Just Like Honey.

But most people don't pay attention to lyrics. "I just like the sound of it, it's so romantic."

I first came across Jesus And The Mary Chain in The Crow soundtrack. They provided one track - Snakerider. The first line is absolute hilarious.
I've got syphilitic hetero friends in every part of town. I don't hate them but I know them. I don't want them hanging around.

I definitely thought it was odd for them to have a "romantic" song. After listening to it closely ( because in the cinema, all I heard was "Just like honeeeeeey ee ee......"), I just couldn't believe what I'm hearing. I sorta had that same feeling when I first heard Bjork's Cocoon. Yes, Cocoon is about sex, how else do you explain the lyrics. Don't pretend.

So if you read the lyrics of "Just Like Honey":

Listen to the girl
As she takes on half the world
Moving up and so alive
In her honey dripping beehive
Its good, so good, its so good
So good

So she's making sound of pleasure, and moving up after giving an head. The guy is the other half od the world of course. Her beehive is her "ahem" and her honey....well....

Walking back to you
Is the hardest thing that
I can do
That I can do for you
For you

After making sexy time, she asked for a favour in return. Going back down on her is the hardest thing for the guy to do.

I'll be your plastic toy
I'll be your plastic toy
For you

But the guy is willing to be her plastic toy. Duh....dildo lah. The pleasure being all hers. Why? You think dildos enjoy being dildos? Ok, don't answer that.

Eating up the scum
Is the hardest thing for
Me to do

Don't be mistaken. Scum is not metaphorical. It is what you think it is. Always use protection. Oral contraceptives will not let you overcome this problem.

Clear now? Crystal?

Something from the movie - something for the memories

For those who've loved. And lost.

It always fascinated me how people go from loving you madly to nothing at all, nothing.
It hurts so much.
When I feel someone is going to leave me, I have a tendency to break up first before I get to hear the whole thing.

Here it is. One more, one less. Another wasted love story. I really love this one.

When I think that its over, that I'll never see him again like this... well yes, I'll bump into him, we'll meet our new boyfriend and girlfriend, act as if we had never been together, then we'll slowly think of each other less and less until we forget each other completely. Almost.

Always the same for me. Break up, break down. Drunk up, fool around. Meet one guy, then another, fuck around. Forget the one and only. Then after a few months of total emptiness start again to look for true love, desperately look everywhere and after two years of loneliness meet a new love and swear it is the one, until that one is gone as well.

There's a moment in life where you can't recover any more from another break-up. And even if this person bugs you sixty percent of the time, well you still can’t live without him. And even if he wakes you up every day by sneezing right in your face, well you love his sneezes more than anyone else's kisses.

Watch it while it's still being shown. Please. Still at Cathay but not for long.....

A song a day 44

She eyes me
Like a Pisces
When I am

I've been buried
Inside your
Heart-shaped box
For weeks
I've been drawn
Into your
Magnet tar pit

I wish
I could
Eat your cancer
When you
Turn black

I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt
To your
Priceless advice

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Walk in the park

Xiaomeinu and I went for a stroll with lulu in tow. Ended up at grandma's.

2 observations.

1) Lulu is the sort of person who does not like to pee or poop in public toilets. That is if lulu isn't a dog but a person instead. I'm sure you have friends like that. Lulu didn't need to visit the toilet all the while when we were out. She peed once we got home. She's totally zonked out by the little outing.

2) Grandma is the lulu's favouritest person in the world. Ok, maybe within the Jln Besar GRC. She's constantly trying to get into grandma's good books. Amazing instinct tells her who's the matron in the household.

No pics. Sorry to lulu fans out there.

Ken & Barbie

This is probably re-hashed from a joke I heard about blondes.....

So Ken and Barbie got married. Not too hard to imagine I'd think.

Barbie got pregnant and both herself and Ken are downright happy, in a ditsy kind of way - "It's like, we're having a baby! Isn't that cool?".

Ken rushed into the delivery room when the nurse called for him. He was absolutely beaming. He saw Barbie who was tired from all the panting and pushing.

"Congratulations Mr Ken, you've got twins!"

Ken was admiring one of the babies when the nurse pushed another into his arms. Shocked, he asked Barbie, "Why are there two babies? Who else did you sleep with?"

Barbie, practically half-dead, replied, "I thought I had already spat it out......."

Wednesday, December 12, 2007


Have been looking at them since March 2007. And it's finally time to wear these but where to get Pea Coats that seemed to be designed by Hedi Silmane?

Slim, tapered without epaulettes. Black. Medium sized buttons. Lightweight. Not too thick.

Oh, and can I buy the weather along to go with it?

2007 - Debrief

Time to take stock. I posted this entry late last year:


What I think will be talked about next year....a mash up list.

Chinese Yuan de-values to a level that satisfies no one as China continues to be the workshop of the world. Tourism will boom in China. Chinese tourists will be found in greater numbers everywhere. Chinese military growth threatens everyone, in particular Japan, Taiwan and US. Japan will re-arm. Korea gets worried. As will Taiwan. So....arms race. But Taiwan got their own problems with their Presidency.

Talking about US and military...their "Get The Hell Out Of Iraq" plan starts in earnest. Some last ditch effort to make sure the Republicans remain in power for 2008 Prez elections. Questions regarding "Do we really want her (Hilary Clinton for President) as Prez" heat up in the press. New Democrats, Old Republicans.....But fuck anyways cause similar to the British politics scene, everyone is now stuck in the middle. New Conservative is the Old Labour and the present Labour is looking lost. It's all about branding branding branding. And money money money.

Malaysia will see itself being entangled in more racial issues. Not a bad thing since positive discrimination and racial/ethnic affirmation issues are brought forward to a public forum for discussion. Hackles will be raised by certain quarters about the Genting/Sentosa tie up. More issues will be brought up some how like water (again!), bridge (again!), reclamation (again!) and Pedra Branca. Well, at least the International Court of Justice will start the hearings in Nov 2007 on the last issue - Pedra Branca, Pulau Batu Putih, Horsburgh Lighthouse and all that jazz. More issues with Johor and their new pet project to develop something called the South Johor Economic Region (SJER). To attract more FDI, please reduce the crime rates. Weird thing is, how come nobody asking about the influence a Chinese Malaysian has over Singapore's tourism? With the Resorts World in Sentosa, his Sentosa Cove propeties and the usage of Harbourfront facilities by his Star Cruises, nobody is worried about Lim Kok Thay?

Middle East countries forge closer ties with *surprise surprise* East Asian countries. Especially ASEAN countries which will be celebrating 40 years in doing nothing much. People speculate about single market and single currency and a combined armed force....but all to nought. But fuck, please keep the Australians out of ASEAN no matter what. But bring them into the Asian Games otherwise always see China win also sian. Middles East becomes attractive region (the 2nd China) for mobile Singaporeans.

Thailand....sigh....I hope they will go back to normal again. Not that it's not normal now and I'm not talking about longer opening hours for the nightspots....Less military presence in the political scene is almost always a good thing for a country.

Iranian President - Assassinated! Well, maybe. But more missile tests!

India will feel left out in this whole thing. But will Indian conglomerates will continue to buy over companies around the world. Perhaps a football club. English Premier League maybe. It's a trend now. Pramod Mittal already of Mittal Steel already bought over one of Bulgarian top team - CSKA Sofia right?

North Korea conducts more N-bomb tests. Pisses everyone off except China. 6 nation talks enter an impasse. Dear Leader gets supply of "luxury" goods from China. Dear Leader and Iranian President will fight for Time magazine's Person of the Year this year end.

More communist news: Russia enters into a mess concerning "international espionage" activity. London is renamed Londongrad or Moscow-on-Thames - Officially. Joking. News in London that is actually exciting, well not much since no elections til 2009. Blair makes way for Brown. Attempts to pull out British troops from Iraq. Claims credit but actually it's because the US started the ball rolling. Wicked. Prince William marries! Well, maybe. Unless Prince Henry shot-guns and does it first in Las Vegas. Not too bad for the royal family. Have a brand new start 10 years after Princess Di's accident (it's official).

At home, GST goes up to 7%! They will break into 1% increment yearly. Does anyone know what menu cost is in relation to price changes? I wish their package for those in the low income bracket is really good. But the usual $2.00 meepok tah at the hawker centre becomes $3.00. Hawker prices go up after years of absorbing GST. Prices in Singapore go up everywhere. Only thing to drop is the falling birth rate. Straits Times Index breaks 3000 mark. After Budget is passed. Well, I am just guessing. SIA finally gets the lucrative Australia - US air routes. Afterall, Qantas is no longer the national carrier. Not after it's so privately owned. More bonus for SIA staff! Hooray for V!

Forgot to add that chandeliers (especially black ornate type) with lampshades become popular. So will cardigans (button type) for guys. Colours that will be featured in 2007 will include RED for the dress (shirt dresses, grecian dresses). So no more LBD (little black dress). More LRD. Cardigans will come in browns. But that's cause guys don't name their colours. Essentially all colours associated with coffee (from the raw stage: unroasted beans to the light roast to the dark roast and burnt, colours of the coffee like cafe au lait, cappuccino, macchiato, expresso, latte, mocha, caramel macchiato etc etc) Lampshades will come in shades of purple, violet and lavender. Lingerie should come in the same colour as lampshades.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Nocturne III

Lin Baoling is holding the third of this Nocturne series of solo exhibition, not in Singapore, but in Taitung, Taiwan instead.

Nocturne III is held at the Taitung Railway Art Village gallery. This series is inspired by the nightscape of Taitung which is very different from the previous two Nocturne exhibitions in that instead of roads, traffic and the hustle and bustle of city life, the rhythms of Taitung allowed a greater appreciation of nature and thus he has made alternate perspective in his Nocturne series.

Here is a Picasa Web Gallery link. I especially like this and this...

If any of you happen to be dropping by that area....the exhibition is from 15 Dec 07 to 31 Jan 08.

Across The Universe

Of all the lyrics that were ever given to me, this one beats all the rest, hands down. She liked the one by Fiona Apple. I preferred the one by Rufus Wainwright.

The movie, based on the musical of the same name, is a love story between a guy named (Hey) Jude and a girl named Lucy (In The Sky With Diamonds).

Official Site here. Opens in Singapore 27 Dec 07. The tagline for the movie is predictably "All You Need Is Love".

Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns it calls me on and on across the universe....


This entry by the lakeside girl is magic!

The first and last line of each "stanza" is so nicely put.

I hope she don't mind me linking.... =P


Some things in this world go on forever - like discontentment ...............
A seemingly self-replenishing substance.

P.S. smileys don't look good with serif fonts : =P

Monday, December 10, 2007

It's Complicated ™


Was there "It's Complicated ™" in 2000?

From xkcd.

Mizuame 150/790

She arrived, hand-delivered, this morning.

Number 150 of 790.


A song a day 43

I know
I would apologize if
I could see your eyes

Cause when you showed me
I became
Someone else

But I was caught in
Between all you wish for
And all you need

I picture you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You can't keep awake

A song a day 42

I'll eat in the taxi queue
Standing in someone else's spew

Wish I had lipstick on my shirt
Instead of piss stains on my shoes

I go out on Friday night
And I come home on Saturday morning

Sunday, December 09, 2007

Sex Marriage System

Yesterday afternoon, just was yewfei and I were at the resort reception, I got an sms from mum asking if I wanted dinner. She asked me on Friday when ZoukOut was and I told her it was Saturday. So it was another case of short-term selective memory. I gave a short reply: Not going home.

Stay where pls? - her reply.

Sentosa. Making underaged girls pregnant. - my reply.

She went on to sms about how her right brain is telling her I'm joking. Left brain worried. And that it wasn't so bad if I were to give her grandchildren right now.

I thought for while. Showed it to my yewfei. Had a laugh...

"Let you know in 9 mths."


should i?

kittystar was mentioning over her minuscule swirl of red wine, and i over a gin tonic, about my "a song a day" series.

was wondering if i should start putting in the song titles for each entry.

after 5 seconds, i'm kind of decided. i will not.

because that was not the premise on which i started the tag.

see here and here. but if anyone have difficulty, just ask. =)

A song a day 41

And let me f
into the dream of the astronaut

Where I get lost in s p a c e

That goes on forever

And you make all the rest just an afterthought

And I believe it's you who could make it better
Though it's not

No it's not...

No it's not...

ZO07 - a weekend of misdemeanors

It started with the Pre-Party the night before. Meeting or bumping into group after group of friends. Poof and frens, Poof's cousins, sean + friends, botak gary + wife stella and friends, pohhuat + dave and navy guys, kittystar + friends (coolness - Adrian and Han - great T-shirt from Noto-Fusai that I spotted months back), mykel (another sweater/cardi).

Thanks to botak, finally(!) got to know Pauline (or Paulynn or ??). The Shu-qi lookalikey.

Everywhere, greetings were mixed with questions that went along the lines of "so....tomorrow going or not?"

Thanks to Poof's cousin, tickets were free. British American Tobacco was masquerading under the "Edge of Lush" event and offered. Coolness. Yewfei had an extra room last minute - Siloso Beach Resort. Command HQ sjorted!

SaturDay started fairly easy. Met yewfei+wife to check in. Fell asleep soon after.

Dinner with yewfei + friends - similar group to his wedding dinner hahahaha. Saw andre and gf too. Met Poh Huat and Eugene - most ah pek person I've worked with onboard.

Drinking sesh with usual peeps. I should mention that Poof spilled *censored*.

Anyway, suitably inebriated by 11pm...staggered to the grounds....naughtiness ensued with the ladies in the edge of lush area. Had fun flirting with this girl called Shyna (sizzle) and later we *censored*. (I should/must qualify that it was one way hahaha!)

I cannot remember much dancing actually. Spent time catching up with friends here and there, and the edge of lush area was just offering us so much alcohol and *censored*. Didn't have to spend much. Actually for the entire time I was in ZoukOut, I spent a grand total of $9 on food. Zero on admission. Because we had Heineken Green Room passes, there was no need to queue. Zero on drinks. People were more than willing to give us drinks. Madness! But we already had our share of pre-party drinks in the hotel room and polished off half a bottle of and a bottle of *censored*.

I thought Coxy was poxy (personal humble opinion). How's Armin? I dunno. I was back in the hotel asleep on the floor, my t-shirt soaking up Poofie's *censored*. I hope it washes off....

*censored* - wish you were there. no really. too bad! hiaks hiaks!

Horrorscope - Lucky Number Se7en

This kind of strange day doesn't come around very often, dear Pisces. It will seem as though you no longer know what you want. Do you have a yen to work or to take off for the other side of the globe? People may become nonplussed because you will be thinking that to explain your point of view is pointless. The best thing to do may be to unplug yourself from your usual activities and go for a walk. At this point, you have nothing to lose.

That wasn't the case last night at ZO07. Everyone was very it really that difficult to be happy. I think my happiness will come with myopia. That is, to not think too far ahead. To forget about plans. To stop dwelling on the "what ifs?". I think when you've thrown your last chip in, you really have got nothing to lose.

I feel happier already.